9/30/2022 - the cycle (CW: vent)

so,

my entire life ive had friends, as kids do, and they have all been so nice but at one point or another they leave. every. single. one. 

people i thought were going to be in my life forever just up and left me for one reason or another. and it hurts every single time.

its not just friends. my dad left me. my step mom and 3 of my siblings. and now

the hairdresser i went to that i really liked because she gave me my first trans masc haircut and i really liked it. I spent 3 hours and $115 only to find out shes just another transphobic asshole.

just like someone i work with who i thought was my friend. WHY does this keep happening?

what did I do? why everytime i get close to someone they get sick of me. its just a 

never

ending

cycle.