10/20/2022 - I can't remember most of my childhood.... (TW: talk of abuse)

 I can't remember most of my childhood...

I remember bits and pieces of little things like going to get ice cream from the ice cream truck. Or our living room being completely buried in presents on Christmas.

But if you were to ask me how Elementary school was I wouldn't be able to answer. 

I don't remember.

I can't remember because of (drum roll please) ABUSE!!!!

It's terrible of course. Like it's a sad, depressing, terrible subject but here's the thing, there is nothing I can do to fix it. I can't go back in time. But, I can live my life to the fullest.

I can become who I want to be. I can show little me who thought that life is pointless and it'd always be awful that we can make something of this. 

I love my little self, I love my current self, and I love my future self. I'm very happy I got to grow even if I'm not happy how I had to grow.

I love you all and you deserve great things,

- A