11/9/2022 - its getting bad again

 its getting bad again. i have seasonal depression so i knew this was going to happen but i hate this. i really want to die. like more than i have in awhile. i thought i was getting better but everyone i turn to gives me the same answer 'im sorry idk what to do'

me neither. im holding on for m. my partner. because i know after winter itll be ok. like im ok but i dont feel ok. i hate seasonal depression. and its worse because i can't talk to my sister anymore. usually the person who i would talk to would be her but i dont know if ill ever see her again. i miss her.

i miss being happy.