A Proper Introduction

 Okay, so this is a new introduction as things have changed.

Hi! My name is Alexander. I usually just refer to myself as Alex. Im 18. I'm a transgender man. My pronouns are he/him. I've been through a lot but I like to think that I'm a better person because of it. Here are some people in my life.

CAM: My little sister

M: my mother

SD: my stepdad

MM: my stepbrother

PM: my older stepbrother

ESM: My old stepmom, also known as Evil Step Mother

F: my biological father (we don't like him)

H: my step sister (someone I miss a lot and will most likely never see again)

D: my little brother (will also never see him again)

MX: My older brother (see above)

That's pretty much everyone I talk about. Here's a bit more of an introduction on the bigger points in my life (HUGE TRIGGER WARNING FOR: Sexual assault, child abuse, self-harm, suicide, death, depression/anxiety)

Okay, so my parents (M and F) got divorced before I was born. Because F cheated on M with ESM (cause he's a dick). So M fell in love with SD and they had CAM. SD already had MM and PM with another woman so they were also in my life. Then F married ESM and she brought with her H and MX. F and ESM had D. I was gaslit, abused, and brainwashed for 17 years by F and ESM. I only very recently realized what had happened. I realized that ESM had been sexually assaulting me and she was manipulating me. I got medicated for my depression. In 2020, my aunt (one of my favorite people in the entire world) died. That hurt really bad. I came out in 2020. In 2022 I changed my name legally. And around the same time, I wrote a very long and very emotional letter to ESM and F to tell them that I would never be coming back to their house. I had a lot of nightmares after sending that but it was the right thing to do. But it was also the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Because sending that letter meant I would most likely never see MX or D again. But I was mostly broken over H. She and I were best friends for my entire life. I miss her more than anything in this world. She will always have a place in my heart and I will always love her. Anyway, I will be 2 years clean from self-harm on October 18th. I've tried to kill myself twice, the most recent one being on February 10th. On January 26th, I ended a 10-month-long relationship with someone I thought I loved. Now I'm gay and they won't leave me the fuck alone. 

Anyway,

That is all. -A